The little blood that came out was going to potentially change their lives forever, AND change mine. I had seen people with HIV before, I know kids who have it, but never have I sat in this room before. Never have I had to hold down 3 little girls with all my might, while kissing their faces and telling them I love them and it will be over soon. I have NEVER been in this position before, and as I sat there waiting for the results, my knees were shaking, my stomach was full of butterflies and my eyes were beginning to fill up with tears.

I could not change the results of the tests. No matter how long I stared at the 3 ticking timers, I was not going to change what would happen after the timers went “DING”. I sat in that chair, rocking the two youngest in my lap, and blowing kisses to the oldest, and all I could do was pray and think about these words that I heard about a month ago…

“Jesus does not ask that we care for the less fortunate, He demands it. When calling ourselves Christ-followers, caring for orphans and the desolate and the widow are not an option, it’s a requirement.”

These words were playing over and over and over in my head. As I thought of the possibility of Sinsua (5 yrs old), ǂKhitani (4 yrs old), Pinky (3 yrs old) and their baby brother (8 mo) being positive, I could not stop thinking about these words. The Lord has called me to this. He did not politely ask me to kiss these 4 foreheads and love them to pieces, He demanded me to. These are HIS babies and He has told me to share His love to them! Because Jesus has a special place in His heart for these angels, I too should have a special place for them.

During those 15 minutes I thought about the first time I saw these 3 girls a week ago. They were dirty, hungry, sick and lonely. They did not have their own clothes, panties or shoes. Their heads were full of sores and white from being so dry. Pinky, who looks 1 but is really 3, didn’t have any diapers and was not potty trained. A part of me did not want to pick her up because of the rashes on her face, the dirty t-shirt she was wearing and the bare bottom she was rockin’. But her sweet face, precious under-bite and tiny tongue that sticks out when she laughs, quickly won me over. Next thing I knew, I could not let her down. The older two’s beauty, sweet personality and the way they care for their baby sister also won me over. These three girls quickly stole my heart!

I thought about the day we brought the girls home with us, last Saturday, and how they were so quiet and not sure what to do. But they finally warmed up to us and began acting like normal little girls. The first time we gave them baths they were not sure what to think of us, but that was the first time we began to see smiles. I thought about how they must of thought these 4 white ladies were crazy for un-braiding their hair (in the tub which is not a good idea) because they had just gotten them done that morning (we had no idea). I thought about each of their unique personalities…

Sinsua is sweet, but also has a little bit of a rebel side. She likes to see how much she can get away with before she gets in trouble. And when she does get in trouble, she makes you want to just love on her and never get on to her again. She is so funny when she plays dolls, she seriously treats the American Girl doll like a real baby. She wraps her around her back like the African women do, and she braids her hair over and over. That doll may not have any hair left by the time Sinsua is done playing with her.

ǂKhitani is so gentle, she is the most shy out of the 3 and she loves things to be in order. She is very sensitive and HATES being pricked with needles! No matter if she goes to the bathroom in the morning, afternoon or middle of the night, she always makes this “brrrrrrrrrrr” sound when she dries her hands. She has seriously made me laugh at 4am in the morning because of this sound that she HAS to make, as if her hands would not get dry if she didn’t.

Pinky is the crazy, loud, hilarious one. She steals your heart in a minute and then tries to bite you. She is the definition of a “picker”. She picks at her scabs, your scabs, your nose and even your moles. I have been in serious pain because of those little fingernails. She is tiny, but can eat more than I do! She goes crazy when she sees food and even when she is eating her own, she wants everyone else’s food as well.

During those 15 minutes I thought about their baby brother (who we found out about later) laying in the baby ward, hooked up to an IV because he was so malnourished. I thought about the wrinkles his skin made because he is literally made up of flesh and bone. I thought about the way he lights up when he sees Pinky’s face. I thought about the day I met him and how he reeked of urine and was covered in filthy clothes. I thought about how he was going to have to take the same tests as his sisters and there was going to be a waiting period for his results as well. I thought about what would’ve happened if he didn’t come and stay with us.

My mind went crazy during those 15 minutes. I couldn’t help but think about how my life had changed so drastically in one week. I had no idea what I would do at the end of those 15 minutes if the man said they were positive. My heart would break. Then, all of a sudden… “DING”. The results were ready and I heard the man say, “They are all okay.” I was overcome with relief! PRAISE THE LORD!

I am so grateful that the Lord was there during those entire 15 minutes. He has been there for their entire life and will continue to be there, loving them! He is the Father of the fatherless. And like John 14 says “I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.” He will not leave or forsake these 4 babies. He has had them in His hands the entire time. Of course I am so glad that they are negative, but if they were positive this truth that the Lord will not leave them, would still be true. There is nothing better than that.

“Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.” James 1:27

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“This is a hard place. This is a hard calling. How do you live in a land of persistent instability? How do you minister to the spiritually oppressed and oppressive? How do you learn the language? Understand the culture? Navigate the government abuse? How do you throw up your hands in frustration and embrace a friend at the same time?
What do you do when the next war touches you and its your turn to flee? What if you lose all your stuff? What if you lose more than just your stuff? What if its worth it? Can we afford to wait for things to become easy? I don’t know what to do with this. God is calling me to something, but is it something this hard?
I have these feet and they can go, even if they are not experienced… but the question I’m asking is this, “are they willing?” Willing to walk some of the earth’s most beautiful and devastated lands. Willing to stand side by side with those of my African brothers and sisters. Willing to be trashed in the process and one day be called beautiful. Are my feet willing to move against the fear? I don’t know what to do with this but there’s one thing I do know, I can no longer just walk away.”

“Sometimes when we are called to obey, fear does not subside and we are EXPECTED to move against the fear. One must choose to do it afraid.” Elizabeth Elliot

My time here in Namibia has been good, but I didn’t realize how many expectations I had coming here, until they weren’t met the way I thought they would be. Some of my unmet expectations have not been such a big deal, but some have caused me to have moments of complete emotional break down. Some of these “let-downs” have really been making me lose sight of why I am here. I have been so focused on them that I have been unable to truly focus on what He has called me to do here, which is to reach the unreached, share the Gospel, love on His children, and glorify His name.

In the past week the Lord has really brought to the surface how negative I have been and how I have just been having my own little pity party. This morning, after reading that article, I realized that the Lord was asking me to trust in Him and embrace this season. He never said it was going to be easy, but I do believe it is going to be worth it. I realize now that even though it is not easy being here, and there are days that I just want to go home, I need to receive these winds and allow Him to mold me. I want to be like Paul was with the thorn in his flesh and allow this east wind to shape my character and make me more like Jesus and glorify Him.

In his grace, God appoints circumstances for us. Sometimes he gives you a plant to protect you and show you that he is taking care of you. Sometimes God appoints a worm to remove the shade and sends a scorching east wind to blow down on us (Jonah 4:6-8). It’s the same loving God at work, but he’s working in different ways. His purpose is to transform us into the image of his Son, and he will appoint whatever is appropriate at the time to bring about this goal. -People Are a Work in Progress

I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know that He will NEVER leave me. I am learning to rejoice in every season and to see His handiwork no matter what the circumstances.

“In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith- more precious than gold that perishes though it tested by fire- may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.” 1 Peter 1:6-7

We are in ABO now, in Machakos, Kenya. ABO is Africa Based Orientation, and it is a 3 week training period where we learn about AIM, Africa, cultures, religions, and so much more. It has been really interesting, but the days are long… we are in “class” from 8:30-5… I forgot what it felt like to be in a classroom setting for so long! But at least here we have 2 tea breaks and a lunch break :)

We are staying at Scott Theological College where I am FINALLY getting to experience what true dorm life is all about… KSU did not equip me for that, but I am getting used to it! We get to interact with the Scott students, and that is such a blessing. Actually as I write this, I am in the dining hall watching them practice their choreographed dances to worship music :)

I am surrounded by AMAZING people from the US, England, Scotland, S. Africa, Canada and Brazil. It is such a blessing to be able to go through this with them and to get to know their hearts and passions… I wish they were all going with me to Namibia! But the Lord has called us to different parts of the continent, and that just gives me a good excuse to travel around :)

Our time at ABO is FULL of information… I mean seriously my brain hurts from all the info, but it is all great stuff to know. A lot of the classes are taught by Africans themselves, so that is awesome! Last week we learned about the Muslim community and last Thursday we got the opportunity to go to a mosque during prayer. After prayer we headed to the Muslim school and one of the teachers allowed us to ask him questions. I wish I could write more about that, but honestly I was really confused by his round-about answers haha

I guess the highlight for me here so far, besides hanging out with these amazing people, is learning about the Muslim community and Islam and all that. Last year at candidate week, AIM showed us a video about Muslims, and it broke my heart… ever since this video, Muslims have been on my mind, and last week I just could not get enough of what I was learning. I had so many questions, and I still do! So I feel so blessed to have learned what I learned and to be able to continue learning. Even though I may not be working with them directly, I know the information that I have learned will help me if I do come in contact with someone of that religion one day. I feel better equipped, but I know I have a lot more to learn and I am really excited to do so!

One of the most encouraging things that our speaker said last week was that “God is winning among Muslims.” Can I get an “AMEN!!” He is winning, even when we cannot necessarily see it. He is capturing hearts and it is beautiful. And we all know that every knee will bow and every tongue will confess one day that Jesus Christ is Lord, and that includes Muslims.

My prayer is that the Lord will continue to burden my heart for the unreached and that He will give me opportunities and the boldness to share His love… even in places where it might not even be allowed to do so! I am now living on a continent where there are unreached people groups all over and I have no excuse to keep this precious gift of salvation to myself!

There is a lot more that the Lord has already been teaching me and I cannot wait to share that… But I will wait for another day!

I leave ABO on the 25th and will finally arrive in Namibia on the 27th. I cannot wait to be there and to begin to experience what the Lord has for me there. He has prepared the way for me and He has directed my path! I just CANNOT wait to be there!!!!!!!

My thoughts are running wild because: both of my checked bags are pushing the weight limit and I have had to downsize a million times, my life for the next 2 years is packed into 4 bags (who would’ve guessed that was even possible for me), I have a million thank you’s to finish, and some classes… so I am kinda goin crazy! Of course, if you know me, you know that this is normal for me. I mean I started packing the night before I left for Peachtree City. Let me rephrase that… I started packing my life away for the next TWO YEARS the NIGHT BEFORE I left home and headed to PTC. But the Lord is good and I made it here all in one piece (well technically 5 pieces if you include myself, my carry ons and luggage).

So tomorrow is it. Tomorrow is the day that I have been waiting for for what seems like forever! It is so real. The butterflies are making themselves comfortable in the pits of my stomach. Soon I will be calling Namibia my home, and I just cannot believe it… but I can because this is what the Lord has prepared me for. This is what every single prayer was for. Every single document, passport photo, visa, and skirt was preparing me for this moment.

I can’t wait, but I feel like I can or want to wait another month or so. But it is go time, no looking back :)

I just wanted to thank yall for the love, support and prayers you have so kindly given me. I know that I am covered in prayers and that just melts my heart. The Lord has blessed me with such amazing people to be a part of this journey with… So thank you!

I would write more, but HELLO I have A LOT to do :)

Next time I write on this I will be an African. Ok well not really an African, but you get what I mean! So until then…

I guess it is about that time for a little update on what has been going on these past couple of months…. So I did not leave for Africa in July, as many of you know, and the Lord has been so good in showing me reasons as to why I did not leave. I am so grateful that He knows what is best for me and He has had all this planned out waaayyyy before I even knew anything about Africa. He knows when I will be leaving, and I am just excited to know as well! The next departure date is at the end of September and the deadline for finances is right around the corner, at the end of this month. It is definitely crunch time if I am going to be leaving on September 29th. So I have to have 100% of both outgoing and monthly at the end of August in order to leave at the end of September.

Financially I am coming along, and the Lord has been so great to provide 116% of my outgoing fund. This is great because the overage is divided by 24 and added to my monthly… so that brings my monthly just above 60%. This means that I have a little over $700 to be pledged monthly in order for me to leave in September. I have seen the Lord move in such amazing ways these last several months. He has shown up in more ways than just providing financially. He has been my rock throughout this process, even in times where I was not taking full advantage of His strength. It seems that He has loved to surprise me in big ways in the moments where I am struggling the most! And I am just so blown away and grateful for Him through both the ups and the downs. I am still so hopeful about leaving in September, I know that the Lord can bring this to fruition in any amount of time that He wants!

Last night as I was crunching the numbers, trying to figure out where I am at financially and how far away I am from my goal, and I felt a wave of emotions come over me! I just kept saying to the Lord “This thing can only come together if and when you want it to.” Which is totally true! In His perfect timing it will all come together…. whether it be in the next couple of weeks or the next couple of months. Of course I want to be in Africa ASAP! But I cannot rush the Lord’s timing, I don’t even want to try to rush it!

Anyways, last night I was thinking to myself “I have no idea how this is going to come together, or whose hearts the Lord is going to place this on.” I don’t have any idea how, but I just believe that He will. Last night was just full of prayer and conversation with the Lord. Praying for those who have given. Praying for those that the Lord will bring forth in the future. Praying that I will trust, believe and rest in His provision. Praying that I will see His hand in all of this and not be discouraged by the enemy. Needless to say, it was an awesome late-night.

This morning I was woken up by a phone call… I didn’t want to answer because I had only been asleep for roughly 4 hours, so I decided to let it go to voicemail. When I eventually listened to it, to my surprise, it was someone who was telling me they wanted to support me monthly and pray for me daily. I couldn’t help but smile from ear to ear. “Thank you Lord!” That is all I could think or say, thank you!! See, I told you He is full of surprises!

So now I am a little closer to my monthly goal, and I know it will continue to grow. The Lord is just teaching me to enjoy this ride. Enjoy this moment of completely depending on the Lord because there is absolutely no way I could do this without Him. I am so grateful to say that the Lord is teaching me so much throughout this process. He is teaching me more and more about Himself and who I am in Him. Sometimes the lessons I am learning are tough, and most of the time I am having to die to my flesh. But I would not trade this refinement for anything. I have so much more to grow, and I have to continuously let go of what I think I am in control of. It is hard, but He is worth it all. Goodness, He is so worth it. I am just so expectant and excited for the Lord to continue to move in big ways! To Him be the glory!

If you would like to be a part of what the Lord is doing in Namibia, I would be so grateful and happy! I need so much prayer!! Namibia needs prayer! The kids I will be working with need prayer! It would mean so much to me if you would want to partner with me in prayer! If you would like to partner with me financially you can click the “How to Support Me” tab at the top of this page and see the ways you can be a part in that way, anything would be great!

Thank yall for letting me write all of this! Thank you for all the encouragement you have already given, it does not go unnoticed! I love yall!

Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord

Our God, You reign forever
Our hope, our Strong Deliverer
You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won’t grow weary

You’re the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles

I just felt this huge overflowing feeling of relief and comfort, knowing that He is my everlasting God. And when I am feeling weak, He is there to lift me up! Ugh. That song could not have come at a better time!!! And since then, I have had it in my head just constantly singing it in my head. Then of course Isaiah 40:28-31 has been in my head as well… what a powerful passage!

So this is where I find myself, waiting on the Lord. Waiting for His timing to be revealed. And throughout this waiting period, He has been giving me strength. He has been growing me tremendously and stretching me constantly. It has been hard, but totally worth it! And I know it will continue to become more and more worth it!

Now, with all that being said… I got some news today. Hope, my precious facilitator, called me today and told me where I stood financially on my support and what that meant for my departure. I am at 114% on my outgoing support and almost at 55% on my monthly! Which is so great and so exciting! But because my monthly is only at 55%, I will not be leaving in July.

I thought that I would be sad and disappointed, but I am the complete opposite. I am hopeful, excited, and ready for October!!! Of course I want to be in Namibia ASAP! But I know that it has to be in the Lord’s timing. And I really believe that October is the right time for me.

Prayer Requests:
I have a lot to do before October, and I believe that the Lord is going to use this time to teach me about time management (something I am awful at). I am excited about this opportunity, because it does not come natural to me to be organized and structured. It is something I am going to have to work on and be dedicated to, but I know that it can happen! Prayers would definitely be appreciated for that!

I still have about 45% left for my monthly support… please pray that the Lord will put it on peoples hearts to help what He is doing in Namibia.

Also, I know that I could not do this without the love and support from all of yall! And my sweet friend, Bess who is leaving with me in October, reminded me how important it is to pray for our supporters and future supporters! We are so humbled by those who pray and support us, and we pray that the Lord blesses you throughout this experience! And if there is any way that I can pray for you personally, please please please let me know!! I would love to fight for you as well!

I love yall and am so blessed by you!

Last year, I was a senior at Kennesaw State and I started looking into different ways I could possibly go back to Africa for a longer period of time! Finally, the Lord led me to AIM (Africa Inland Mission). Last August I spent a week in NY with some of the most incredible people I have ever met, and the Lord confirmed so much for me during that week. At the end of the week, all of the candidates were accepted as AIMers =) It was a wonderful time. I didn’t leave NY knowing exactly where I was going and what I was going to do, but over time the Lord revealed that.

I am going to be in Otjiwarongo, Namibia for the next 1-2 years to work as a social worker for orphans and vulnerable children and their caregivers. In this role I will be advocating for the children, providing counseling, and working with local social workers and the government. I am excited and nervous all at the same time! I know that the Lord is going to have to work through me and bring out talents that He has given me that I probably don’t even know I have. I am going to be putting my KSU degree into use, finally, and for that I am very excited! I love that I am going to be working with orphans and vulnerable children! And the fact that they are African is a huge plus =)

These possible next couple of years are going to be very stretching. I know that I am going to learn so much, and my prayer is that my eyes will be constantly opened to what the Lord is teaching me. But I think the biggest prayer is that the Lord will use me to advance His kingdom! Acts 20:24 says “However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.” That is what I pray this time will be about. That the Lord will use me to share the gospel to these precious children and caregivers. My prayer is that He gives me boldness, wisdom and strength to do His will.

Right now my departure date is July 14, but that is subject to change if I do not raise all my support by June 17th. I have to raise $11,081 to get me to Africa, and I am currently a little over 100%… Glory to God! In order for me to stay in Namibia, I have to have $1,863 in monthly pledges. I currently have almost $400 towards monthly… which is very low, but I am trusting in His provision!

On June 17th, if I do not have 100% of my monthly pledges, I will have to push back my departure date to October. This is something that I have come to peace with, but I know that the Lord can still provide a way for me to leave in July! I am excited to see what He does =) If you want to help me get to 100% of my monthly, you can click on the “How to Support me” tab on the top of my blog and see how you can go about doing that!

I was looking at the numbers today and if 75 people pledged $20/month, or 100 people pledged $15/month I would be at 100% for my monthly! That would be so amazing =) I don’t know if I know that many people haha but the Lord works in mysterious ways and I know He knows that many people!

Please know that giving financially is not the most important part of this. Your prayers are by far the most important part! And knowing that I have prayer warriors behind me means so much to me! So I want to thank you for being on this journey with me!! I would not be able to do this if it weren’t for my amazing friends and family! So many people have already been so generous and supportive of this journey and I am so grateful! I cannot wait to see what all the Lord is going to do! And it has been a huge blessing to see what all He has already done! Thank you for your prayers and support. They mean so much to me.

Fears are beginning to rush in. Butterflies are beginning to take flight in my stomach. Tears may or may not be starting to flow. May is making it real.

The reality of me possibly leaving in July is becoming too much of a reality. And the reality of me possibly not leaving in July is also becoming too much. Is that even possible?? I have been waiting for this departure date for years… and in August it became more real. But not as real as this moment… This moment of not wanting to leave my comfortable bed and home where I am currently writing this post. This moment where I am thinking about my friends and family and how much I am already missing them. This moment where I am going to miss Chickfila and sweet tea. This moment where I can see July approaching fast and it is scaring me to death. This moment that in about a month I will find out if I am even leaving in July, if my support even came in and I was approved to leave this summer. This moment of worry that I may have to push back my departure date to October. This moment, where pushing it back kinda seems more comfortable.

Comfortable. Comfortable? What is comfortable about this?? What is comfortable about leaving my home, family, and friends? What is comfortable about going somewhere with strangers and people who do not even speak the same language? What is comfortable about not being 100% sure what exactly my job role is going to be? None of this is comfortable. But is comfortable what we are called to be as believers? Is being comfortable supposed to be what I am living for?

Luke 9 says

Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it.”

I looked up the definition of “cross” in the dictionary and one of the definitions said “A trial, affliction, or frustration. See Synonyms at burden1.” Then I looked up “comfortable” and it is defined as “Free from stress or anxiety; at ease.” These two words completely contradict each other. So if the Word says this in Luke, then where did I get this idea of wanting/deserving to be comfortable? If I want to glorify the Lord, then why am I being all whiny about my comfortability instead of trusting in my Savior. Why am I worrying about all this stuff when He is holding me in His hands. I am being a dodo. I am walking in fear.

It is so easy for me to begin to question everything. I worry, then that leads to doubt, and then that leads to fear. It is a vicious cycle, and I know if I am placing my FULL trust in God, this cycle will not have a hold on me. So I am praying that the Lord breaks me free of this. That He will give me the strength and boldness to do His will. That I will trust and follow Him, wherever that leads me… if that means I leave in July or October. It is His timing. Not mine. It is His will. Not mine.

I am praying that I am constantly on my knees, surrendering my worries, doubts, fears, and comfort to the Lord. It was so cool because I started writing this blog last night… and then tonight one of the students at Sublime spoke and he said “God does not work in our comfort zone” and I just felt like the Lord was speaking to me through Stephen! It was so awesome. I love those precious moments.

Lord, thank You for being my strength, I am so weak without You! I know that I need You and only You. Father, I want to be Your disciple, no matter what the cost. If You ask me to leave everything that is “comfortable” then my prayer is that I hand over my fears, worries, and doubts over to You. Because the only place that I want to be comfortable is in Your hands. I never want to get to a place where I am so “comfortable” in my own life that it hinders me from seeing You and Your will for the life You have given me! Continue to stretch and teach me… I love getting to know You more throughout this process! Lord, please give me the boldness to continue on this journey. Even when the journey is hard, I desire to find joy in the hardship. Because I know that in every trial, You are guiding me and teaching me. So thank you for what has already happened throughout this journey. And thank you for what is to come. Thank you for calming me down, after a couple of days of me trembling in fear. I love You!

For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline. So do not be ashamed of the testimony about our Lord or of me his prisoner. Rather, join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God. He has saved us and called us to a holy life—not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time, but it has now been revealed through the appearing of our Savior, Christ Jesus, who has destroyed death and has brought life and immortality to light through the gospel. 2 Tim 1:7-10

Only He can give me power/strength/boldness.

I have been told that I am making a huge sacrifice by wanting to serve in Namibia as a single girl. I just don’t know if I see it like that. Actually, I know I don’t see it that way. It is nothing that I am sacrificing, or anything that I am doing. It is Christ through me that is giving me the ability to do this. TRUST ME, if it weren’t for Him, I would not have the courage or desire to do this! So it is not a sacrifice. It is 100% pure joy. He is giving me the opportunity to go to a different continent, share His Word, love His children, and learn more about who He is. If that is what a sacrifice looks like, then I would love to make more of them. But it isn’t a sacrifice. It is a privilege. Plain and simple. And it wouldn’t even be possible for me to do this if He didn’t sacrifice Himself on the cross for me. I would have no reason to go to Namibia and share the gospel if it weren’t for the cross. The greatest sacrifice EVER.

Now. Let me clear something up. Not EVERY conversation I have had about this journey has led to these concerns about my relationship status. But a lot have. Some people I think are truly concerned and then others I think are just confused as to why I would rather choose to go to Africa than get married (which is not even how I look at it AT ALL). Some say it jokingly, while others are serious. Sometimes I allow their words to get to me, but I try to stand firm in the Lord’s plan for my life. If that means that I am heading to Africa in July, then I want to follow that.

I would be fibbing if I said that I have not thought about the concerns that people have had about my relationship status and age. Which is silly because I will only be 23 when I leave, and when I come back I will be 24 or 25… that is NOT old haha. But I do think about it. I just have to constantly remind myself that if it is the Lord’s will for me to be a wife and a mom (which is a HUGE desire of mine) then He will provide that in His timing! Not mine. Not anyone else’s. I am not even worried about it (at least not today). But for real… I have been so content in where the Lord has me now, that it really doesn’t bother me. I am being given the most incredible opportunity during my singleness, and I plan to take full advantage of it!

My friend posted this video that I have watched a million times already… and I am going to share it on here. There is a line where she says “I will no longer get graded down from so called friends and family talks about the concerns of my biological clock when I serve the author of time!” I have just loved that line! And I just believe that the Lord is preparing me and my husband… and He will reveal him in His timing. Psh I can wait for that!! NBD!

So here is the video… I Will Wait For You